Tuesday, July 11, 2017


Oh my Breckin..you are 4 today. I can’t believe 4 years ago you came into our lives at exactly 3:55 pm. It seems like so long ago but also just yesterday. 

You are so much fun to be with. You love to laugh and to make other people laugh. You’re so affectionate. You give the best hugs and kisses.

You’re such a tough cookie. You’ve gone through so much in your 4 years and yet you manage to just march on and smile. There’s a lot that adults could learn a lot from you.

I love to see the different ways you’re developing. Your much more vocal now when you want to do something and I’m not letting you. Sometimes you like to yell just for fun. And sometimes you like push Mommy and Daddy’s buttons for a good time. 

Trying to play in the dirt from the house plant.

                                                      Even still, You are our pride and joy! 

You're growing so fast. I know i'm going to miss the days when i could carry you around. But no matter what you'll always be my little pumpkin face! 

Friday, April 28, 2017


Holy Moly. A second post. In less than 6 months. Get ready folks for this to blow your mind hole.

Or..maybe just some cute pictures of the kid.

Breckin's 1st Easter Basket

Easter = lots of candy round these parts. Lots.

"Candy for a 3 year old?" you ask.  Yes..well...I may have chosen candy that Joe and I like. But, it's only to protect Breckin's teeth and to prevent sugar highs. Good parenting and all that.

Hope everyone had a great Easter!

Tuesday, March 14, 2017

Time Marches On

Can it already be the middle of March? Time really flies as you get older. Totally how I feel right now:

He discovered his tongue! 

Breckin has been in school for 6 months. He seems to really love it. Even though he’s exhausted afterward.

He’s come home with one piece of artwork a month usually including a paint print of his foot.
It's really cute and has stopped making me cry...don't ask..I just love his little hands and feet. 

Breckin has grown quite adept with his walker. He’s learned how to turn it and now tries to take it up and down stairs and over objects. Which in turn causes my blood pressure to jump. 
His therapist recently showed us how to unlock the wheels. Which makes Breckin go around in a circle when is tired. But will be great for him once he's figured out how to to use it. It will give him greater control and allow him navigate tight spaces easily. Also, hopefully it will force him to use more of his own muscles and get him to start trusting himself to walk independently.  Which would be great for us too since he's getting tall and heavy.

Breck still isn't talking. He's making sounds and is showing greater range of emotions. Squealing when happy and really hamming it up when he's sad or in trouble. It's pretty cute.  As seen here.

Hopefully he'll catch on to some words soon. I really want to hear him say mama.

Monday, September 5, 2016

Preschool Shmschool

Well it's happened.

Breckin started preschool.

Trying on his backpack

Walking into school

I'm excited but my back pack is heavy

Grandma and Komo watching me walk in

Sitting in class - starting circle time

It was a tough day for Mommy (I cried while making his lunch, while dropping him off and once at work) but not for Breckin. He handled the day wonderfully. 

Thursday, April 14, 2016

Round here

Feels like I’ve been writing some version of this blog post forever and just don't get around to putting my thoughts down. 

Since my last post Breckin has had two more seizures one on January 22 and one on Easter Sunday March 27. He’s now on a higher dosage of his medicine and we have rescue medicine. Which we used on Easter. It was the first time Joe and I felt in control and less scared. It’s never easy seeing your kid’s brain lock up. But this time felt better because we we had a plan, executed it and although we spent the afternoon in the ER it was spent cuddling Breckin and not watching helplessly as the ER team tried to stop his seizure. 

See the Cuddles?

Breckin is still getting his therapy every week. He just got leg braces and we see an improvement in his walking when he wears them. It’s hard because we don’t see the great leaps and bounds that we thought therapy would provide. But he works hard and we know he’s making progress slowly but surely. Imagine video of him holding hands and walking. I can't go figure out how to put the video in here yet. 

At the end of the month we have a meeting with the school district to see about preschool and therapy through them. It's such a scary concept for me. Thinking of people that don't know Breckin and know his quirks taking care of him scares the ever loving crap out of me. I do feel like he'd benefit from being around other kids. But handing your world over to someone that might not take care of it as well as you and your family do is scary. 

As a parent sometimes you just make hard choices and do what you think is best. even when the answer isn't clear. You just kinda cross your fingers and toes and hope it's the right one. 

Wednesday, November 4, 2015

Please let this story be true!!

I can't make this stuff up.

A white woman is saying that Michael Jackson's ghost impregnated her and that's why she gave birth to black baby.

This chick says she was watching a special on Michael Jackson then his ghost came back and knocked her up.

Her husband says he believes her and they are asking for money from the Jackson estate.

I don't want them to get to money but man....I'd love to spend 5 minutes with this whack-a-doodle.

You can read the story here.


Friday, October 30, 2015

What's a microcephaly


Since my last post Breckin has been diagnosed with Microcephaly. Which literally means small head. I’m sure you are thinking. “ small head? Is that a real thing. Small head’s are cute!” , “think of the money you’ll save on hats!”.


Yes, it’s a real thing and yes he is cute. However, it does come with more problems than finding child size hats.


On Sept 2nd Breckin had a seizure. I had no idea a seizure could look like this. He wasn’t flopping around he was just sitting staring off. He could still respond to questions but I couldn't get him to move his head. That was probably the scariest day of my life. When my brother called me at first I thought Breckin was just nauseous. So I asked him to send me a video. When I saw the video all the blood in my body went straight to my feet. Honestly I don’t know how I kept it together but I managed to drive to my parents’ house pick up Breckin and my brother and then head to Urgent care. Apparently we were supposed to call 911. I guess we’re lucky that no damage was done. We ended up being transported via ambulance to Lucille Packard children’s hospital.

Seizures are part of the territory with microcephaly.

Since that time we’ve had Breckin on anti-seizure meds and he’s doing great. His head is still small but no seizures. 

The past few months have been full of doctor’s appointments and therapies and through it all Breckin has been a champ. 

He’s so strong, good natured and such a sweet heart. This kid kills me with how loving he is. 

Joe and I are so lucky to have him.