Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Suspended animation

For 8 years I’ve been doing the same thing over and over again. I go to work hang out with boyfriend, take care of my dad and now grandpa, lather, rinse, repeat.

I’m stuck.

If you asked me when I was 16 what my life would be like at 28 this certainly wouldn’t have been it. It would have involved lavish parties, serial dating and a cat. At 22 it would have involved being married and having children. I really felt like I had life planned out.

I feel like I’m at the starting line waiting for the gun to go off. Honestly, I don’t know why I’m in a rush. I just feel like something anything needs to happen. I realize that i'm only 28. But I feel like life passed me by somewhere along the line. Like I woke up at 28 years old but am still living the life of a 20 year old. I feel restless..i hate this feeling.

Maybe I just need to work out more. Maybe changing my body will help change my mind.I don't know..

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