Monday, June 28, 2010

The universe

Sometimes it seems like the universe is out to poop on your head. Anybody else just have one of those months?

Wednesday, June 23, 2010


Joe and I have been struggling to come up with money for the wedding. It's amazing how much these things cost. Even when i think that we're being pretty frugal. We're waiting on a couple of things to come through so we can be for sure that we'll be okay money wise.
It's been incredibly stressful. I can't stand the talks we've been having of what happens if things don't work out. Do we give up the wedding? Do we nix the reception and just have a quickie wedding somewhere? It makes me so sad to even entertain those thoughts. I'm keeping my prayers going that things will work out.

My girls are planning my bach party. It's super exciting to think about!! Vegas, Vegas, Vegas! We are gonna have such a great time! I love all the girls i've asked to be my bridesmaids and I can't wait to spend time with all of them. :)

Monday, June 14, 2010


Ever since I was in 7th grade I've loved musical theatre, it was then that my best friend at the time introduced me to it. She was well versed in the ways of auditions and backstage antics. The play was "You're a good man Charlie Brown" put on by the Sunnyvale Community Players. I didn't know anything about the play except that I wanted to be in it so bad. Mostly so I could hang out with her. I was so nervous I must have peed 5 times before it my turn to get up and sing. My heart was beating fast, I don't even remember what I sang but I remember how it felt when I didn't get in. My heart sank and my eyes filled with tears. They called a few days later and said that some kids dropped out, so I was in and a star was least in my head. I'd sing at the top of my lungs into my hair brush and dance around the room.

I'm sitting here watching the Tony awards (on Tivo) with the excitement of a kid at Christmas. It's so exciting to see these people that do this for a living who have a true love of it, all together in one place celebrating it.

I think I hear my hair brush calling.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

I miss having summer vacation. Long days, warm evenings, watermelon and the ice cream man. I miss running around barefoot. Feeling the freedom of riding my bike.

Most of all I miss 3 months of laziness. Of just being young with no stress. Not worrying about my job or car payments, rent. Just worrying about weather or not i could make it back to home base without being tagged.

I miss having something to look forward to every year. I think no matter what i have to look forward to during the year there will always be a place in my heart that longs for summer.